If someones asks me am I okay, than I'll definitely say that I'm NOT.
I might seem to be okay, but i'm NOT.

"Through the good, and the bad, and the ugly, we'll grow old together."
"I love you, always, forever."
"I''ll never let you go."
"Last long 'til we're grandpas and grandmas."

I ONCE believed those sweet promises,
but the fact is. They are ONLY promises.
Promises lead to expectations,
and expectations lead to disappointments.

I've decided to let go everything.
I want to let go. I must to let go.
I want to forget. I must forget.
But how am I going to move on when the memories are still haunting me.

Since the day you left, I dreamed about you almost everyday.
I woke up in pain.
I can barely breath.
I looked around, and stuffed animals from you are around my bed.
I get off from my bed, I saw the TV.
I remembered when we watched the TV together.
I walked through my bedroom, I remembered when we studied there.
I went downstairs, and every part of my house still reminds me of you.

I go out. I drive the car.
The streets even remind me of you.
When we used to be in your car, going down the streets, and chat.

Every restaurant we used to eat,
every words you used to say,
every thing reminds me of you.

The streets in Jakarta remind me of you.
How we used to go through those streets when we are on our way to our friend's seventeen dinner or party.

Malls in Jakarta remind me of you.
How we used to hang out.

When I saw cute things,
the first thing in my mind..
"I hope he'll buy me this." or "Should I buy him this?"

I love making stuffs for him.
So every time a creative idea comes into my mind,
it only reminds me of you.

So, what to do?
How to get you off from my mind?
Please, get out.
'Cause I'm struggling here like hell.

Friday, December 21st 2012 10:52
__________________________________

We were born on our own path..
Growing up through our own path.

Until the day when we finally met
And decided to walk on the same path.

1268 days we walked on the same path.
Holding hands, and strengthen each other up to face the broken paths.

And when life finally forces us to split our path again..
We walk on our own path again.
You have your own life.. So do I.
You have your own plans.. So do I.

We are no longer on the same path.
And I have to move on.

_____________________________________

My ears still catch every voice of yours.
My eyes still search for your presence.
My conscience still cares for you.
My heart still beats for you.
And my soul still wants you..

Friday, January 11th 2012 22:52
_____________________________________

It's funny yet amazing to rethink that I was in such a serious pain at those times.
But I'm really grateful for the strength that He has given to me until this day..
Now. I'm enjoying my life.
I'm enjoying the last days in high school.

Can't imagine what I would be without Him.
And I'm looking forward to the day when I can finally say,
"Thank You for those hard times that I've been through."
:)
Aku pernah percaya pada cinta.
Cinta itu terang, manis, dan hangat.

Cinta membuat bangun dari tidur menjadi sesuatu yang menyenangkan,
karena pada akhirnya realita menjadi sesuatu yang jauh lebih membahagiakan daripada mimpi.

Cinta membuat segalanya menjadi lebih indah,
menjalani hari dengan senyuman dan selalu menanti-nanti datangnya hari pagi.

Cinta membuatku banyak berharap dan berangan,
berangan tentang apa-apa saja yang hendak dilakukan di kemudian waktu.

Membayangkan setiap rencana manis membuatku bahkan sulit untuk berhenti tersenyum.
Menanti-nantikan waktu bertemu membuatku bahkan sulit untuk menunggu barang sedetik pun.
Segala kerisauan tentang hidup pun sirna sudah ketika aku memiliki cinta tulus itu di hati.
Cinta, membuat hidup ini menjadi lebih berarti.

Namun,
Bagaimana jikalau ternyata cinta yang selama ini selalu meyakinkanku tentang masa depan,
Cinta yang selama ini selalu aku yakini sebagai yang terbaik,
Cinta yang selama ini aku cintai sepenuh hati,
Cinta yang selama ini berucap "selamanya",
ternyata bukanlah cinta yang terbaik untukku?

Cinta itu mengecewakanku. Cinta itu menyakitiku.
Cinta itu membawa pergi separuh hatiku, dan meninggalkanku dengan hati yang tinggal separuh.

Lantas, bagaimana caranya aku bisa percaya kembali, kepada hal yang disebut sebagai cinta itu?


They keep saying time will heal.

I will always keep in mind, that I will be strong enough to face everything.

And I'll always believe that something better and bigger and prettier and more awesome and more amazing and more beautiful is waiting for me in future.

Because I have that one Father that cares for me more than I could ever imagine.
Amen.
30 hari telah berlalu.

So easy to forget our love,
The little things we do,
Like calling for no reason
Just to say the words "Baby I love you," 

I know lately, I've been busy
But a second doesn't go by
Without you crossing my mind
It's been so long since we had time
Let's take a day & make everything right

Just take my hand, fall in love with me again 
Let's runaway to the place
Where love first found us
Lets runaway for the day
Don't need anyone around us

When everything in love gets so complicated,
It only takes a day to change it.
What I have to say can't wait
All I need is a day

So let's runaway...
Let's runaway, just for the day
Runaway, runaway

Girl, you've been so patient
Spending nights alone & not complaining

But I'll make it up to you,
And I promise today I won't keep you waiting
Please give me this one chance
To remind you of everything we have

I won't give up I'm too much in love 
And I want you to know that 

Just take my hand, fall in love with me again
Let's runaway to the place
Where love first found us
Let's runaway for the day,
Don't need anyone around us

When everything in love gets so complicated
It only takes a day to change it
What I have to say can't wait
All I need is a day

So let's runaway for the day
And I'll give everything in this moment
And I promise to make everyday just like the day
"Rumput tetangga selalu nampak lebih hijau."

Ya, gue menyetujui kebenaran daripada pepatah itu.
Dan gue yakin ada banyak orang di luar sana yang juga berpikiran hal yang sama dengan gue.
Gue merasa gue selama ini banyak hidup di dalam bayang-bayang pepatah itu,
dan pada akhirnya..
Jadi terlalu berharap terus.
Selalu berkeinginan lebih, selalu menuntut banyak, dan tidak pernah puas.

Pada akhirnya gue gak bisa ngerasain kebahagiaan yang seharusnya bisa gue rasain dengan keadaan gue yang sekarang. Gue cuman bisa melihat hal-hal yang gak gue miliki dan gak gue terima ketimbang mensyukuri hal-hal yang jauh lebih indah yang sebenarnya gue punya.
Dan biarlah gue saat ini menyimpulkannya sebagai suatu tindakan bodoh. Dan memang iya, itu cuman tindakan bodoh yang cuman ngerugiin lu doang. Dan gue menyesalinya.

Gue gak tau apakah apa yang saat ini tengah gue hadapi merupakan tamparan dari tindakan bodoh yang selama ini gue lakukan atau tidak, tetapi gue merasa cukup tersadar.

Apa yang biasanya selalu ada buat gue, kini menghilang.
Dan gue berharap ini cuman berlangsung sementara, atau gue bisa gila dibuatnya.
Saat segala sesuatunya tersedia buat gue, gue gak pernah bisa melihat betapa berharganya itu buat gue.
Dan sekarang saat hal tersebut mulai menghilang, gue cuman bisa ngegalau setiap hari, dan berusaha sekuat tenaga untuk bisa mendapatkannya kembali.

Saat kesabaran, kekuatan, dan kesetiaan gue lagi benar-benar tengah diuji,
gue mau belajar untuk lebih bisa melihat apa yang gue punya.
Menyayangi apa yang gue punya dengan sepenuh hati. Gue gak lagi mau banyak berharap.
Selama apa yang gue punya masih menjadi milik gue, gue janji akan memperlakukannya dengan lebih baik.

Gue gak tau kapan semua ini akan kembali lagi menjadi baik,
tapi I'm still here, I'm still holding on, and I still believe that everything's gonna be alright, soon.
So until that time comes, just trust me and see my efforts.

Jadi, syukurilah apa yang lu punya sekarang, meskipun itu gak selalu sesuai keinginan lu, atau gak selalu seindah punya tetangga lu, tapi at least in the end it will ALWAYS be the best for you.

Rumput tetangga mungkin memang lebih hijau, tetapi tidak ada yang bisa mengalahkan kebaikan daripada rumput kepunyaanmu sendiri, bukan? :)



To wake up early in the morning,
and get ready for school.

To fill my brain with something,
that'll be useful for me in the future.

To feel the difficulties of understanding a subject,
and feel happy when you can do it.

To feel depressed to face tomorrow's exam,
and it makes you stay up late until midnight.

To get to know your teachers,
and be thankful to them.

To lose your leisure times,
and get busy to prepare your school events.

To meet and greet new friends,
and share laughter and happiness with them.

To spend a lot of time together with your best friends,
and act crazy like no one's watching.

To be surrounded by people you love,
and be able to spend every single day with them.


I still don't want it to be over,

So,

TIME,

Please do not pass too fast :")

If someones asks me am I okay, than I'll definitely say that I'm NOT.
I might seem to be okay, but i'm NOT.

"Through the good, and the bad, and the ugly, we'll grow old together."
"I love you, always, forever."
"I''ll never let you go."
"Last long 'til we're grandpas and grandmas."

I ONCE believed those sweet promises,
but the fact is. They are ONLY promises.
Promises lead to expectations,
and expectations lead to disappointments.

I've decided to let go everything.
I want to let go. I must to let go.
I want to forget. I must forget.
But how am I going to move on when the memories are still haunting me.

Since the day you left, I dreamed about you almost everyday.
I woke up in pain.
I can barely breath.
I looked around, and stuffed animals from you are around my bed.
I get off from my bed, I saw the TV.
I remembered when we watched the TV together.
I walked through my bedroom, I remembered when we studied there.
I went downstairs, and every part of my house still reminds me of you.

I go out. I drive the car.
The streets even remind me of you.
When we used to be in your car, going down the streets, and chat.

Every restaurant we used to eat,
every words you used to say,
every thing reminds me of you.

The streets in Jakarta remind me of you.
How we used to go through those streets when we are on our way to our friend's seventeen dinner or party.

Malls in Jakarta remind me of you.
How we used to hang out.

When I saw cute things,
the first thing in my mind..
"I hope he'll buy me this." or "Should I buy him this?"

I love making stuffs for him.
So every time a creative idea comes into my mind,
it only reminds me of you.

So, what to do?
How to get you off from my mind?
Please, get out.
'Cause I'm struggling here like hell.

Friday, December 21st 2012 10:52
__________________________________

We were born on our own path..
Growing up through our own path.

Until the day when we finally met
And decided to walk on the same path.

1268 days we walked on the same path.
Holding hands, and strengthen each other up to face the broken paths.

And when life finally forces us to split our path again..
We walk on our own path again.
You have your own life.. So do I.
You have your own plans.. So do I.

We are no longer on the same path.
And I have to move on.

_____________________________________

My ears still catch every voice of yours.
My eyes still search for your presence.
My conscience still cares for you.
My heart still beats for you.
And my soul still wants you..

Friday, January 11th 2012 22:52
_____________________________________

It's funny yet amazing to rethink that I was in such a serious pain at those times.
But I'm really grateful for the strength that He has given to me until this day..
Now. I'm enjoying my life.
I'm enjoying the last days in high school.

Can't imagine what I would be without Him.
And I'm looking forward to the day when I can finally say,
"Thank You for those hard times that I've been through."
:)
Aku pernah percaya pada cinta.
Cinta itu terang, manis, dan hangat.

Cinta membuat bangun dari tidur menjadi sesuatu yang menyenangkan,
karena pada akhirnya realita menjadi sesuatu yang jauh lebih membahagiakan daripada mimpi.

Cinta membuat segalanya menjadi lebih indah,
menjalani hari dengan senyuman dan selalu menanti-nanti datangnya hari pagi.

Cinta membuatku banyak berharap dan berangan,
berangan tentang apa-apa saja yang hendak dilakukan di kemudian waktu.

Membayangkan setiap rencana manis membuatku bahkan sulit untuk berhenti tersenyum.
Menanti-nantikan waktu bertemu membuatku bahkan sulit untuk menunggu barang sedetik pun.
Segala kerisauan tentang hidup pun sirna sudah ketika aku memiliki cinta tulus itu di hati.
Cinta, membuat hidup ini menjadi lebih berarti.

Namun,
Bagaimana jikalau ternyata cinta yang selama ini selalu meyakinkanku tentang masa depan,
Cinta yang selama ini selalu aku yakini sebagai yang terbaik,
Cinta yang selama ini aku cintai sepenuh hati,
Cinta yang selama ini berucap "selamanya",
ternyata bukanlah cinta yang terbaik untukku?

Cinta itu mengecewakanku. Cinta itu menyakitiku.
Cinta itu membawa pergi separuh hatiku, dan meninggalkanku dengan hati yang tinggal separuh.

Lantas, bagaimana caranya aku bisa percaya kembali, kepada hal yang disebut sebagai cinta itu?


They keep saying time will heal.

I will always keep in mind, that I will be strong enough to face everything.

And I'll always believe that something better and bigger and prettier and more awesome and more amazing and more beautiful is waiting for me in future.

Because I have that one Father that cares for me more than I could ever imagine.
Amen.
30 hari telah berlalu.

So easy to forget our love,
The little things we do,
Like calling for no reason
Just to say the words "Baby I love you," 

I know lately, I've been busy
But a second doesn't go by
Without you crossing my mind
It's been so long since we had time
Let's take a day & make everything right

Just take my hand, fall in love with me again 
Let's runaway to the place
Where love first found us
Lets runaway for the day
Don't need anyone around us

When everything in love gets so complicated,
It only takes a day to change it.
What I have to say can't wait
All I need is a day

So let's runaway...
Let's runaway, just for the day
Runaway, runaway

Girl, you've been so patient
Spending nights alone & not complaining

But I'll make it up to you,
And I promise today I won't keep you waiting
Please give me this one chance
To remind you of everything we have

I won't give up I'm too much in love 
And I want you to know that 

Just take my hand, fall in love with me again
Let's runaway to the place
Where love first found us
Let's runaway for the day,
Don't need anyone around us

When everything in love gets so complicated
It only takes a day to change it
What I have to say can't wait
All I need is a day

So let's runaway for the day
And I'll give everything in this moment
And I promise to make everyday just like the day
"Rumput tetangga selalu nampak lebih hijau."

Ya, gue menyetujui kebenaran daripada pepatah itu.
Dan gue yakin ada banyak orang di luar sana yang juga berpikiran hal yang sama dengan gue.
Gue merasa gue selama ini banyak hidup di dalam bayang-bayang pepatah itu,
dan pada akhirnya..
Jadi terlalu berharap terus.
Selalu berkeinginan lebih, selalu menuntut banyak, dan tidak pernah puas.

Pada akhirnya gue gak bisa ngerasain kebahagiaan yang seharusnya bisa gue rasain dengan keadaan gue yang sekarang. Gue cuman bisa melihat hal-hal yang gak gue miliki dan gak gue terima ketimbang mensyukuri hal-hal yang jauh lebih indah yang sebenarnya gue punya.
Dan biarlah gue saat ini menyimpulkannya sebagai suatu tindakan bodoh. Dan memang iya, itu cuman tindakan bodoh yang cuman ngerugiin lu doang. Dan gue menyesalinya.

Gue gak tau apakah apa yang saat ini tengah gue hadapi merupakan tamparan dari tindakan bodoh yang selama ini gue lakukan atau tidak, tetapi gue merasa cukup tersadar.

Apa yang biasanya selalu ada buat gue, kini menghilang.
Dan gue berharap ini cuman berlangsung sementara, atau gue bisa gila dibuatnya.
Saat segala sesuatunya tersedia buat gue, gue gak pernah bisa melihat betapa berharganya itu buat gue.
Dan sekarang saat hal tersebut mulai menghilang, gue cuman bisa ngegalau setiap hari, dan berusaha sekuat tenaga untuk bisa mendapatkannya kembali.

Saat kesabaran, kekuatan, dan kesetiaan gue lagi benar-benar tengah diuji,
gue mau belajar untuk lebih bisa melihat apa yang gue punya.
Menyayangi apa yang gue punya dengan sepenuh hati. Gue gak lagi mau banyak berharap.
Selama apa yang gue punya masih menjadi milik gue, gue janji akan memperlakukannya dengan lebih baik.

Gue gak tau kapan semua ini akan kembali lagi menjadi baik,
tapi I'm still here, I'm still holding on, and I still believe that everything's gonna be alright, soon.
So until that time comes, just trust me and see my efforts.

Jadi, syukurilah apa yang lu punya sekarang, meskipun itu gak selalu sesuai keinginan lu, atau gak selalu seindah punya tetangga lu, tapi at least in the end it will ALWAYS be the best for you.

Rumput tetangga mungkin memang lebih hijau, tetapi tidak ada yang bisa mengalahkan kebaikan daripada rumput kepunyaanmu sendiri, bukan? :)



To wake up early in the morning,
and get ready for school.

To fill my brain with something,
that'll be useful for me in the future.

To feel the difficulties of understanding a subject,
and feel happy when you can do it.

To feel depressed to face tomorrow's exam,
and it makes you stay up late until midnight.

To get to know your teachers,
and be thankful to them.

To lose your leisure times,
and get busy to prepare your school events.

To meet and greet new friends,
and share laughter and happiness with them.

To spend a lot of time together with your best friends,
and act crazy like no one's watching.

To be surrounded by people you love,
and be able to spend every single day with them.


I still don't want it to be over,

So,

TIME,

Please do not pass too fast :")

A petite girl who is in love with designs, and well-taken photographs with adorable colour filters. A big fan of axioo-indonesia and being a part of them is my dream job. A hazelnut/caramel lovers, and desserts are my best friend. Cozy hang out places would absolutely be my favourite place. Hearing my favourite songs on the radio would cheer me up, and singing in the bathroom is my second job. Loves to write stories about life, and never gets bored to re-read it all over again.

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