Past notes.
If someones asks me am I okay, than I'll definitely say that I'm NOT.
I might seem to be okay, but i'm NOT.
"Through the good, and the bad, and the ugly, we'll grow old together."
"I love you, always, forever."
"I''ll never let you go."
"Last long 'til we're grandpas and grandmas."
I ONCE believed those sweet promises,
but the fact is. They are ONLY promises.
Promises lead to expectations,
and expectations lead to disappointments.
I've decided to let go everything.
I want to let go. I must to let go.
I want to forget. I must forget.
But how am I going to move on when the memories are still haunting me.
Since the day you left, I dreamed about you almost everyday.
I woke up in pain.
I can barely breath.
I looked around, and stuffed animals from you are around my bed.
I get off from my bed, I saw the TV.
I remembered when we watched the TV together.
I walked through my bedroom, I remembered when we studied there.
I went downstairs, and every part of my house still reminds me of you.
I go out. I drive the car.
The streets even remind me of you.
When we used to be in your car, going down the streets, and chat.
Every restaurant we used to eat,
every words you used to say,
every thing reminds me of you.
The streets in Jakarta remind me of you.
How we used to go through those streets when we are on our way to our friend's seventeen dinner or party.
Malls in Jakarta remind me of you.
How we used to hang out.
When I saw cute things,
the first thing in my mind..
"I hope he'll buy me this." or "Should I buy him this?"
I love making stuffs for him.
So every time a creative idea comes into my mind,
it only reminds me of you.
So, what to do?
How to get you off from my mind?
Please, get out.
'Cause I'm struggling here like hell.
Friday, December 21st 2012 10:52
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We were born on our own path..
Growing up through our own path.
Until the day when we finally met
And decided to walk on the same path.
1268 days we walked on the same path.
Holding hands, and strengthen each other up to face the broken paths.
And when life finally forces us to split our path again..
We walk on our own path again.
You have your own life.. So do I.
You have your own plans.. So do I.
We are no longer on the same path.
And I have to move on.
_____________________________________
My ears still catch every voice of yours.
My eyes still search for your presence.
My conscience still cares for you.
My heart still beats for you.
And my soul still wants you..
Friday, January 11th 2012 22:52
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It's funny yet amazing to rethink that I was in such a serious pain at those times.
But I'm really grateful for the strength that He has given to me until this day..
Now. I'm enjoying my life.
I'm enjoying the last days in high school.
Can't imagine what I would be without Him.
And I'm looking forward to the day when I can finally say,
"Thank You for those hard times that I've been through."
:)
Past notes.
If someones asks me am I okay, than I'll definitely say that I'm NOT.
I might seem to be okay, but i'm NOT.
"Through the good, and the bad, and the ugly, we'll grow old together."
"I love you, always, forever."
"I''ll never let you go."
"Last long 'til we're grandpas and grandmas."
I ONCE believed those sweet promises,
but the fact is. They are ONLY promises.
Promises lead to expectations,
and expectations lead to disappointments.
I've decided to let go everything.
I want to let go. I must to let go.
I want to forget. I must forget.
But how am I going to move on when the memories are still haunting me.
Since the day you left, I dreamed about you almost everyday.
I woke up in pain.
I can barely breath.
I looked around, and stuffed animals from you are around my bed.
I get off from my bed, I saw the TV.
I remembered when we watched the TV together.
I walked through my bedroom, I remembered when we studied there.
I went downstairs, and every part of my house still reminds me of you.
I go out. I drive the car.
The streets even remind me of you.
When we used to be in your car, going down the streets, and chat.
Every restaurant we used to eat,
every words you used to say,
every thing reminds me of you.
The streets in Jakarta remind me of you.
How we used to go through those streets when we are on our way to our friend's seventeen dinner or party.
Malls in Jakarta remind me of you.
How we used to hang out.
When I saw cute things,
the first thing in my mind..
"I hope he'll buy me this." or "Should I buy him this?"
I love making stuffs for him.
So every time a creative idea comes into my mind,
it only reminds me of you.
So, what to do?
How to get you off from my mind?
Please, get out.
'Cause I'm struggling here like hell.
Friday, December 21st 2012 10:52
__________________________________
We were born on our own path..
Growing up through our own path.
Until the day when we finally met
And decided to walk on the same path.
1268 days we walked on the same path.
Holding hands, and strengthen each other up to face the broken paths.
And when life finally forces us to split our path again..
We walk on our own path again.
You have your own life.. So do I.
You have your own plans.. So do I.
We are no longer on the same path.
And I have to move on.
_____________________________________
My ears still catch every voice of yours.
My eyes still search for your presence.
My conscience still cares for you.
My heart still beats for you.
And my soul still wants you..
Friday, January 11th 2012 22:52
_____________________________________
It's funny yet amazing to rethink that I was in such a serious pain at those times.
But I'm really grateful for the strength that He has given to me until this day..
Now. I'm enjoying my life.
I'm enjoying the last days in high school.
Can't imagine what I would be without Him.
And I'm looking forward to the day when I can finally say,
"Thank You for those hard times that I've been through."
:)